I usually don’t share sermons with you guys. I mean, maybe I should more often, but I usually just go to church, come home, & keep it in my own heart & mind. But I couldn’t just keep it to myself today. Not when I know that there are SO MANY of you going through a dark time. You know what, I’m just going to say it. I’m in a pretty dark season of my life right now. I was always scared to say that before for fear that people would think I was unhappy or that I wasn’t feeling blessed by our bountiful life that God has given us, but it’s the truth. I am living many dreams right now…. married to my best friend for 10 years, owning our dream farm, & owning our dream store here in Michigan. BUT one of my dreams, of being a momma to some beautiful babies here on earth just hasn’t happened. We have miscarried 7 beautiful babies. seven. Six miscarriages with seven beautiful babies in total. We have now endured 6+ years of infertility & struggling with so many health issues I can’t count. I’m not going to lie, I usually don’t get stressed above it, I’m never really mad at God, I don’t get jealous of others lives, & I’m truly living my best life. But it still it doesn’t always make sense when you are in the thick of it & there are days where you question everything. Why is this happening to us when we desperately want children? Why is God allowing this to happen to Jose & I when everyday on the news there is stories about children being abused, killed, & unwanted by their parents? Why us? Why are we having to endure this pain over & over again? God is not making sense. Well, that brings me to today’s sermon I heard & it brought everything I have believed, known, & trusted for so long to light.
Things don’t always make sense to us. There are bad things that happen that we don’t always see the meaning behind. Sometimes we do see why things happened after we are out of the trial, but most of the time they are all blessings in disguise that we may never know the reasoning for. Things are not always our plan, but they are all according to His plan. This is a three part sermon & today was number one & we touched on three very important things we need to make it through these times that don’t make sense…
- Patience-This is a hard one, but the one that made the most sense to me after the pastor explained it more. It doesn’t help someone that is going through a hard time to say “Just be patient” in fact that usually makes things worse. BUT patience in the darkness helps us see past all the pain. Patience is the very thing that helps us stay the course & trust in his plan for us. Patience is the thing that gives us hope & peace. Patience in these tough times is also the very thing that helps the dark time not be so dark. Patience is what helps us see the beautiful story God is writing with our life & to see the daily joys. When we are patient we see the joy in everyday despite the hard thing we are going though. When we are patient we are met daily with strength, daily joys, & peace because we are seeing beyond what we are going through & knowing that this is just a chapter in our lives. Honestly guys this is why I have gone through 6 years of infertility & still can be so positive. I get that question every single day, & I chalk it all up to prayer & patience that keeps me upbeat & not totally consumed by the pain of loss.
- Joy.Another hard one. You can’t just tell someone to have joy through their pain. It’s not that easy right? But it’s also not impossible & I am living proof of that. We must find joy within ourselves to get through the hard times gracefully and in tact. In the darkness we literally have to cling to, fight for, & rejoice in every single moment of joy. Joy is a product of trust. When we trust in God’s plan we can find joy in every single moment. If we are willing to choose joy we will be able to see all the little joys in our daily lives that are gifts from above. If we don’t choose joy through the hard times the alternative to that is very ugly. To live anxiously, filled with sadness, & not living our best life despite our circumstances is no way to live at all. I will always choose joy even on the hard days I will strive to find the blessings. & that is the way I will choose to live. I say it all the time, God has blessed us so richly after every loss to the point that I know in my heart that He is showing me that we are exactly where He wants us to be in that moment because I will always choose to see the joy and God in everything.
- Strength.This one seems obvious. You can tell someone to be strong through the hard times, but it really is the most important one. When we are going through darkness we have to ask for strength daily, agility to navigate the darkness, & perseverance to reach the light at the end of the tunnel. God always provides strength where we are willing to ask for it. Strength is so much easier to obtain when we also have patience & joy in our hearts. You know the saying, “God is good ALL the time”? Well it’s true. Through the hard times, through the good times, He is good. We must rejoice in Him through the difficult days because His plan will surely bless us more than we could ever imagine. Rejoice in God in the hard times & your strength will be renewed.
So, you are right. I don’t understand why we have lost all of our children, I don’t think it makes sense most days, but I know that this is a clip of my story & I want to be the best person I can be and live my best life even through these trials that are on my journey. Sometimes in life we think things aren’t fair. We wonder why hard times happen to us. We question why God is allowing this to happen to us. But when we think things aren’t fair, we are not looking at the big picture. These dark times are all part of our beautiful story. Each one of us has a unique story to tell & most of the time we can’t see that story God is telling with our lives until we come out on the other side. Things don’t always make sense. We all have seasons of darkness, but know that you are not alone, know that you are equipped to handle these hard things, & know that this is just a chapter in your life. These hard times will mold & shape us to be better people if we choose to not let them ruin us. I truly hope all of you know that the darkness is temporary & that these hard chapters do not last forever… you can do this. Whatever you are going through… you can handle this. Always choose patience, joy, & strength in all seasons. This is a three part series at our church so I will be back with my thoughts on the next ones as well. I hope this helps some of you & I want to say thank you to everyone for helping us through this hard season of ours & for always stopping by our blog daily to support us on our journey. xx
Ps. our church live streams services to people around the world & our church, though new to us in the grand scheme of things, has really helped us on our journey. You can find the lifestream & past services & more information [HERE]. Also, a huge thank you to my good friend Kristin Jones for capturing these photos of me & my fur babies… who aren’t so furry anymore.
So much of what you said speaks to something in my family. I’ve had so many members of my family have cancer, and not all of them were able to beat it. In 2012, my only sibling was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer when she was 42. Sadly, hers was inoperable, and she was on very strong chemo until about four months before she died in March 2014. She left behind a daughter that was only eight years old at the time. We are devout Christians, but despite our best efforts it was hard not to ask “why?” I feel for you and your husband, and I’ve also wondered why some people that don’t deserve them can spit babies out every washday. I’ll include you in my prayers.
What a great testimony. I pray for your family daily. Thank you for sharing your love of Christ and being an inspiration for those fighting the same battles.
I have a couple angel babies too. I wish that I knew the right things to say as I see friends go through this. There is no single answer; and I am not sure we will ever know why. If we did would it make it easier? I am not sure. But I did write down my feelings and what I learned, to share with anyone who might help. forgive the typos. I should fix them. It is raw. It is real. I wish I could hug you and let you know that you are loved, it’s not your fault and that you can fill that void you fill with joy somehow. I pray that your journey will take a beautiful turn. I will attempt to include the link to where I wrote about my losses. Incase it can help you or anyone. Hugs!
https://millerfamilyjewels.blogspot.com/2013/07/how-do-you-get-through-miscarriage.html?m=1
I haven’t had a chance to watch the whole sermon from your church yet, but l did skim. I have been known to lament a “few” times myself! ? I lost my first child during my third month of pregnancy and i lost my second when he was full term ( cord accident). I remember being sad and angry and feeling desperate and depressed, sometimes all at once. In addition to my babies in heaven i now have 2 beautiful daughters. Having lost the first two i believe it has made me overprotective, but i have also never taken the blessing of my children for granted.
I don’t know if i handled my situation with as much grace as you have. I have great admiration for you, i know your loss and it is not always easy to reach out to comfort others. God’s love shines through you. I’m sure your players will be answered, and I will keep you in mine.
I needed to hear this today! I was diagnosed last fall with a couple things that make it hard for me to get and stay pregnant. I still remember the moment i realized something was very wrong, before the Dr could get a word out, and being in complete shock. We have been trying 2 years this month and recently had a miscarriage. Some days are tough, last night was one of them but what kept popping up on my head was the song Good, Good Father. I know God has a plan through all of this and your 3 points of finding joy through it all, being patient and staying strong are spot on. These are the things I try to exemplify. I’m not the same person I was 2 years ago. I’m a better version of myself and for that I’m thankful to be going on this journey. My best wishes and prayers are with you and your husband.
I always love reading your posts. You were one of the first blogs I went to when i decided to starr my oen, because like you, I post about home and infertility. I’m prayin for ya. ❤
“Joy is the product of trust!” Love this line! You are in my thoughts and prayers today! I appreciate this post. I need to remember so many others in prayer today and your post helps me to include and those struggling with the question, “Why?”
Beautiful testimony. What a platform you have to help and encourage so many! I have had a long, painful waiting time in my life too. I became a wife and mom for the first time at 42! My prayer for you and your husband is that God will give you the desires of your heart!!
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I’m so sorry, Liz. Thank you for continuing to share your life story with us.
Have you and your hubby considered foster care or adoption? There are children of all ages ready and waiting for parents right now here in the USA! I’ll pray for you. Hugs!!
Thank you for this. My husband and I are struggling with infertility, and it has been very hard to trust God and choose joy. It has been a dark time. Your faith inspires me. Thank you for sharing!
My husband and I have lost 3 babies. All in the second trimester. One of them being born at 22.3 weeks and living for an hour and a half. I have PCOS and incompetent cervix. Since losing our son at 22.3 weeks, 5 years ago, we have gone through infertility. I haven’t been pregnant since 2012. A year after her loss, we were given the opportunity to adopt our son from an independent, private adoption. It wipes us out financially. We knew we wanted more children so we tried Fertiltiy treatments once our son turned two. For a full year we tried everything short of ivf. I knew I was done trying. We decided to become foster to adopt parents. In December we were placed with a 3 month old and his 3 year old brother. So far it is going towards adoption… but in April I got the call about a brand new baby girl that has no parental ties. We even got to name her! We are in the process of adopting her right now. God always has bigger plans. We just have to step out in faith.
Thank you for your honesty and for sharing. So many in social media just show the highlights or gloss everything over to perfection. Don’t get me wrong, I love seeing your Instagram posts of the farm and the animals but this is real and true. I hope that we can lift you up.
Your writing always makes me feel like home. It’s almost as if you can put my words to paper sometimes, and I think that’s why I’ve enjoyed following your story! Thank you for sharing, infertility should not be something we shy away from, or should be ashamed of. Unfortunately it’s more common than not. I hope you find the brighter light today, and even if it takes a couple of days, the light is always so much more beautiful when you have to pull yourself out of the darkness. ❤️ @mrspsherrill from IG
I’m so sorry for everything you have and are going through. Prayers for your journey, wherever it may take you.
Wonderful post! Thank you for sharing, God recently spoke some very similar things straight into my heart from Romans 5:1-5. That suffering produces perseverance, perseverance produces character, and character produces hope. It is possible to be joyful through the dark times because we know that God will see us through it and continue shaping us into the person He needs us to be. I have been following your journey for quite awhile, even before I started my TTC journey. After a year of trying I am starting to worry and question what may be wrong, but I know that God is ultimately in control.
Such beautiful words that can fit so many aspects of life. Your sweetness and joy shine through your instagram feed and stories, which is the only way I know you! ? I was a surrogate three years ago for a family that couldn’t carry a child. It took a few years before we had a successful pregnancy and it was heartbreaking for me to live through their disappointments, although no where near the pain they felt. You have such an upbeat, encouraging personality, despite your losses, and I am thankful I found you on instagram, you are always a bright spot in my day! I will continue to keep you and Jose in my prayers. What a blessing to spend life with your best friend!
Thank you for being so inspiring. I, too, have experienced loss and my heart aches every time I think about it. It just doesn’t make sense, but God has his reasons. I think he wants to test our faith at times to strengthen us. Sending lots of prayers your way, keep your faith.
This post shows so much strength. We are going on 7 years of infertility…and while we’ve never been pregnant, my heart breaks for you guys and all that you’ve gone through. I know there is joy in the destination and strength in the journey. But maybe there should also be joy in the journey and strength when you’ve reached the destination. Sometimes when frustrations arise with myself, it comes off as unappreciativeness like you said…but I think if we don’t give this weight of infertility a voice, we don’t help others…and ultimately hurt ourselves more. Your story to me shows love. And bravery. And truth. ❤️❤️
Thank you for this! I am going to pass this post on to some friends of mine!
“The blessing of the LORD makes a person rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.”
|Proverbs 10:22|
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” |John 10:10|
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I started following you because I too live on a farm and love to decorate my home. My story isn’t about not being able to conceive children. My two daughters are 24 and almost 29. My baby is getting married in November but my oldest is in Honduras on the mission field volunteering at an orphanage of 587 children. She doesn’t have a Boyfriend and as the days and years go by I wonder what Gods plan for her life and if she’ll ever be a mom and if I’ll ever be a grandmother to her children. But she’s a mom to 14 toddlers in her house there. The only love of a mother these children may ever see. That brings me joy. The other part of my story is I’m the oldest of 3 girls. I had 2 girls, my middle sister had 2 boys and my baby sister couldn’t have children. They tried for 10 years but never could conceive. They looked into adoption. They met a mother that decided to give her child up. They paid for medical expenses and she changed her mind at the very end. Needless to say adoption began to have a sour taste too. He husband is in law enforcement and somehow The Lord lead them to DHR and social services. They heard she and her husband could possibly want to adopt and within DAYS their lives changed forever. They needed a home for a 6 month old boy. She told her husband “I want him”. He said but you don’t know what he looks like or anything. She said “I don’t care”. They got him and he was beautiful and healthy despite his mom and life style she lead. But… one week later they contacted them back and said we have his sister who has been in foster care and foster homes 3 times who needs a home too. She was almost 1 1/2. Of course she said all I ever wanted was a child but God is giving us 2. This was 8.5 years ago. They are amazing. They are actually so close in age and height they people always tell her Your twins are so cute or Are they twins lol. Well I just know God has amazing plans for amazing people who love him. Patience is key. Pray for my niece. She too is going through infertility. She’s lost 2 that we know of but sometimes I feel she has kept other losses to herself. I’m 50 years old and have had a total hysterectomy but if I could I would have birthed a child for my sister or now my niece if I could. I will promise to lift you and your husband up in prayer. Pray for a spouse for my daughter and a child for my niece. Your so right God is Good!! All the time. In good and trials. He is Good!!
Having hope is what gives us the faith to surrender to God. I just lost my father 2 weeks ago, and not only was he my father, role model, but also my best friend. This year has been full of trials. In February we had to put my mother in a nursing home. I was starting to be able to heal a little from that then my dad had some heart problems. He also had been in and out of the hospital in February and March. He lived his life for the Lord and his family. He was feeling very good and was back to normal then he had a massive heart attack. It’s so hard to deal with the fact I will never see or speak with him, but knowing he lived for the Lord it has given me so much peace. And I ask God why did he have to take him, but I know it was time to go home. And in some ways I’m jealous because he no longer has to endure all the burdens life gives you. On 6/23 my parents would’ve celebrated their 50th anniversary. I have his bible at my house and I was reading his notes which made me cry. Knowing those notes in his bible were words he lived by.
The faith I have in God is what gets me through the hard times in everything. Surrendering to his will is hard, but He tells us that he will carry all of our burdens. He is strong enough to do that, he gives us the strength when we are weak.
I’m 42 and never been married or have kids, and I wonder why? I feel like I’m missing out on so much that everyone seems to have. But I know God has a different plan than everyone else, and I believe that for everyone. We ask all these whys, but really we think we have control of our lives however it’s God that controls us. I know what a good marriage is by the examples of my parents and not going to settle just because everyone else is married. I also believe now that my dad is watching over me in heaven he’ll send me someone incredible.
I heard Joyce Meyer say this and it really resonates with me:
Our tests become testimonies
Our breakdowns become breakthroughs
Our messes become messages
With you sharing your story may just touch someone else’s heart and give them peace in what they are dealing with.
I love watching your stories and today when you said you felt not so together I was thinking what a beautiful woman you are and I can tell you have a huge heart. Something today led me to pray for you. I’m sorry about your loss, and know your family are in my prayers.
I also live in Spring Lake, not too far from you, and I definitely need to figure out a time to head to your store. It looks awesome!! I just painted my upstairs so I’m buying new decor so I’m eager to head there.
Have a good night and thank you for sharing your testimony. Your words were very comforting.
Thank you for sharing your testimony. My daughter is going through the same thing. They have been trying for a couple of years and have had one miscarriage. They found out her progesterone was low and so when she was to get pregnant again they would start her on progesterone shots so she would not lose the baby again but she hasn’t gotten pregnant since. I can’t imagine but I want you to know you are not alone. Thank your for sharing. I love your stories and blogs.
There’s a line of poetry that I like by Marianne Moore which gives comfort: “by darkness a star is perfected.”
Liz, you are such a beautiful person…inside and out! You are so kind, and your words are so encouraging! I know we could be best friends if we met in this lifetime! I have prayed for you and Jose often…and the beautiful grace that you show with every word you speak is amazing! I know God is using you in so many lives…you may never know how much but I KNOW He is! Thank you for your witness and testimonies! I have not endured this issue in my life, but when I hear you speak, it is so uplifting to my soul! To praise the name of our Heavenly Father in some of the toughest times of life is just so inspirational! Thank you! He surely is smiling on you! His banner over you is Love! He IS a good good Father! ALL the time! I will continue to keep you and Jose in my prayers as you seek to glorify Him and make Him known, and as you continue to pray for a family! Love and hugs!
I don’t want to pry into your personal life, but have you been checked for the clotting factor? A friend of mine had many many miscarriages and then found out she had to take a baby aspirin every day of her pregnancy. She then went on to have 2 children without problems. If you’ve not heard about this maybe you should ask your dr. https://m.huffpost.com/uk/entry/7326748
Thank you for sharing this beautiful post and for being so genuine. I can feel so much love come through your words! I recently lost our first baby at 21 weeks. Every journey is unique, especially when it comes to pregnancy and fertility, but I think that the pain of having such a pure desire to have a child of your own and not receiving it is one of the hardest things. I totally agree with every point in your post! And I think it’s totally valid to be able to express that we are living through a dark time because these are the times that faith and Christ are for!! Thank you for sharing this.
Thank you for sharing! ? I’m 45 with two healthy children which one is grown and one is in his way. I recently had a miscarriage and I never knew that pain until now. I wasn’t planning a pregnancy and I didn’t know I was pregnant when I lost the baby. I was in a car wreck and I believe that contributed to the loss. What surprises me is how deep the pain is even if you’re not trying. I feel I’m too old to have a baby. In that moment my age didn’t matter. I was full of grief. Knowing your journey and story along with a few other friends experiences helped me through. If you can be happy and strong I certainly can. I drew from your strength and for that I thank you. ?
I like the poet Marianne Moore who wrote: “In darkness a star is perfected.” You’ll get through this ❤️
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Thank you for this post. I have been following your instagram and now just read your post. I didn’t realize you have had miscarriages and infertility. My husband and I struggled with infertility too for over 10 years. We adopted our first child, Ben after 10 years of marriage, and then our second child Ruthie 10 years later! We had a couple heartaches in between with adoptions but so thrilled and thankful for Ben and Ruthie and can thank God for infertility. During those 10 years I couldn’t say that, although because of the truth my husband and I were able to hear and learn thru the Word taught to us by our church and family we knew God was sovereign and good. My husband is a pastor – has been our entire marriage except when attending seminary. Praise God for His word! Knowing His character, who He is! That held me. His faithfulness when I was faithless at times. But I have to say, I never doubted His goodness and knowing His sovereignty, His love for me- all this really would work out for my good. I too attended many baby showers. Family, friends, church members and after 10 years, multiple showers in the same family! But I too, was happy for them all although painful at times. I knew God was good! Did I have dark days , of course. But God was my strength and my joy as you have written. Being in the word, reminding myself who God is, that was my hope. Now we have a 21 year old and an 11 year old and I can thank God for infertility because adoption never was on my radar before infertility. Could my husband and I be happy with just us, the two of us, a family? Yes. But praise God he opened our hearts to adoption. He was working all this out. Our children had to be born! Even 10 years apart! Please don’t think I am saying be open to adoption or this may be your path. I understand what it’s like when others give “advice” or “maybes” . God will show you His plan. Just know I understand. I am praying for you . You are being used now for God’s glory! Encouraging others! Pointing others to Him!! God knows your heart! Be encouraged. Thank you again for your posts. Love to you , dear sister in Christ.
Then he said to them, “Go your way. Eat the fat and drink sweet wine and send portions to anyone who has nothing ready, for this day is holy to our Lord. And do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.” – Nehemiah 8:10
Liz, I am praying for you. Infertility and loss is a deep pain I’ve known all too well. My husband and I prayed for 8 years for babies. We finally got pregnant with twins, but shortly after birth, they both passed away. I wasn’t sure if I could breathe again, let alone dare to even dream of having more children. But, just when I’m in my deepest despair, God reminded me that my hope is in Him and He is faithful. He promised he would make beauty from the ashes. He promised to give me the desires of my heart. It may not look like the way I had dreamed, but I began to grow in confidence that He would fulfill his promises to me. Two years later, I had triplets, and now, nearly 9 years later, I sit here with a total of 5 babies screaming and running around my house as I type this. Remain steadfast in hope. Cling tightly to Him. Trust even when you do not see. His promises will be fulfilled in your life. It may not always be the way we thought it would look like, but it will always be perfect. Hugs!
Thank you for being honest and transparent. I went through a very dark time two years ago (I mentioned this is another comment). I had to persevere, choose joy and wait…wait…wait. One nugget of truth I am left with from that time — God SAW me. He saw me. And He sees you, Liz Marie.
Dear Liz sweet sister in Christ, I want to thank you so much for sharing your journey so openly and your faith so sweetly. One thing that I would also like to add, is that people are watching how we go through trials and it encourages others when they go through things when they see how you live your life facing all the hardships that comes. I have had countless people tell me how encouraging I am to them because they’ve seen what I have been through, and that it strengthens them in their faith as well. Also, with all the pain comes an understanding and a deepness in allowing someone else’s pain to affect you. And that is such a huge blessing yes it’s so hard not only to experience your own pain, but to enter into someone else’s and come alongside them. That is a total Jesus thing in our lives. I have been praying for you for the year that I have been on Instagram and found you and your account. I have been praying for your infertility issues and your losses. I have four angel babies and so I do know that pain. I just have been praying that God would grant you the desires of your heart and I believe that one way or another he will. Keeping you close and lifted up in prayer and sending you a hug.
I tried to read all that you wrote, but almost from the beginning started wondering why you haven’t adopted a houseful of children? If you’ve been unlucky in that, please forgive me. I think adoption is the most generous, caring thing a couple can do.
Spit babies out? Love to know what people you are talking about. Lovely words, though.
Bless you my sister in Christ. You have glorified the Lord with your story. I love that you are strong and willing to share your heart too. I’ve been going through a Bible study called Experiencing God. We are learning different ways we can experience Him through the day and You my dear just gave me one of those experiences. Thank you and Big hugs!
I just wanted to thank you for your blog. I have had similar experiences, eleven years of infertility. Doctors, surgeries, procedures, miscarriages, you name it. I always used to think the same things you just posted, with all the children that are abused, killed, or unwanted by their parents, why me? Just like you, it was a chapter in our lives, we never had a child, but what God chose for us was adoption. After twelve years of marriage we adopted a baby boy. He is now 28 years old with a family of his own, I have two of the most beautiful little granddaughters. We are truely blessed. Patience is the hardest, but your next chapter is waiting. You are so strong, I know this is because of your deep faith in God, he is the glue that holds us together through the dark times. Just maybe there are other options out there for you, adoption, surrogates, etc. I know some people don’t believe in other options, but I have to say, just because my son isn’t my natural son, I couldn’t love him any less than if he was, he is truely our gift from God. I know what you are going through is so difficult, and I admire you for your positive outlook and strong belief. Thank you for sharing your story, God bless!!!
I have experienced infertility, miscarriages, the birth of two children and adoption. All can lead to pain, expense and joy. Joy because infertility can eventually lead to a happier path. My thought is to run a dual track. Pursue adoption. It will energize you in many ways. In the end, you may experience giving birth and if so, I believe you will have no greater love for one child over another. We have many doors in front of us and my husband I choose to walk through the open door(s). You simply can not walk through a closed door but, it may eventually open! Our children mean everything to us and there is no difference! I am sorry for your profound loss but know you will be reunited in Heaven.
If you have nothing good to say, say nothing at all.
Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life. You have no idea how many people you touch when you share on a platform like this, and I applaud you sharing your Christian belief when so many people have turned away or don’t believe. God Bless!
Comon don’t be sad please or lose hope. You are a gorgeous person and you will make an outstanding Mother. God has a special plan just for you! There is adoption, etc.,etc., the world over children are suffering so badly without suitable parent(s), parenting. Please keep your mind and your heart open to the many alternatives, as well as to your own hopes and desires. There are absolutely so many ways to make your dreams come true and I wish you all the best in all your endeavors.